Thursday, September 17, 2009

Am i normal?????

Well, there's a lot of thing inside my head lately. I guess it's because of the stress tat caused by study. Haih.... I've tried not to think too much d but i cant control my brain at all. It's nothing big deal but my mind just cant stop thinking bout the bad thing. It's all my problem. It's really kinda tired n exhausted. I dunno wat is wrong wif me, i'm trying n kept trying but i felt like my head is going to blow up. haha.... But all i now is after a few days i think or maybe after a few hours, i'll be very relax. Is tat the way i distress myself???? If yes , then it's kinda abnormal n so scary. I dunno wat else to do to help myself, feel so helpless. I think i should find some way to distress myself d. Should i do exercise every week??? Will tat help??? All i can do is find way to help myself as i noe there's no one could help me out. I noe they will help but i wanna try to do it myself, see whether can it work. haha....

I always hate myself.

Friday, September 11, 2009

Life is so UNPREDICTABLE!!!

Haha... Din update my blog for almost 3 months d. Another two more months, i'll be sitting STPM d. It's really kinda stress n so scary bcuz it wil be the most important n also the last BIG exam. Trying to put all my attention on this exam n hope tat i can make it. Well, i'll try my best no matter wat. haha...

Many things happened lately, i'm so distracted n so so glad tat finally i can concentrate back to my study. It's kinda hard to do it still but i'm so glad tat when i need someone, my friends will always there for me. If not bcuz of them, i'll not be sitting here i guess. Sometimes i feel bad too for let my friend down bcuz all they said n done was for my own good. Thx to u all. Especially u.(u noe who am i talking bout rite?) No matter wat decision i made, u'll always support me n u noe me so well. haha.... Is like u can read my mind, noe wat im going to do n of course also lazy to bother me bcuz u noe wat will happen again. haha... It's kinda funny really but i'm still glad u'll still be my listener. Love u o. haha....

Sometimes i realised tat life is really so unpredictable, everything happen for a reason n everyone should take the consequences for wat have they done. It's really kinda challenging but yet still scary bcuz u need to face it alone. Maybe someone can face it with u but u'll choose not to bcuz u dun want to bring any burden or problem to anyone even ur love one. When something happen, we'll be afraid of it n dunno how r we going to solve it but actually it's not the end of the world no matter wat had or will happen. I learn something new. When something tat is kinda bad happen, u dun have to panic bcuz most of the problem have solution. When u think twice again, u'll realised tat it's not something bad, in fact is something beautiful. Well, life is really unpredictable so we should let it be, dun be so high expectation for anything n dun be so fed up bcuz of something tat happened.

In the end, i still love my life. Life is so short, cherish everything n everyone around us n life is not just about ourselves. So DUN WORRY, n BE HAPPY. N i wish miracle will happen. Muackxx....